Head-On

So many, many times.... I still struggle and wonder whether I have made the worst decision of my life or the best one ...Is it just cruel and selfish of me? ...I am not too sure if I can handle the consequences of the decision. Rationally it’s easier said than to have to deal with it.

The finality of it all hits me every time when I run out of daily and self-made distractions, and every time I am reminded of what it used to be or what it could have been.

I would have to face it head-on eventually but how and when... I am just tired of thinking and at the same time afraid of starting all over again. It will be a very long road to recovery and it still feels like I have yet to move forward.....